Connection. What does money have to do with my ability to connect with other people? I keep telling myself I would be able to go out and do things with people if only I had a job and a steady source of income. When you're broke, every decision to drive somewhere to meet up with someone needs to be weighed against having enough gas for everything else. It's horribly depressing and frustrating.
However, it doesn't cost anything to make a phone call. I have hundreds of unused minutes on my cell phone plan each month. It's free to go for a walk, and I can walk to several local destinations. Maybe my lack of finances has nothing to do with my reclusive behavior. Maybe it's just a convenient excuse. Maybe if I was brave enough to connect with other people, I wouldn't have such a lack of financial stability. Maybe it's a cycle of fears and insecurities reinforcing each other.
However, it doesn't cost anything to make a phone call. I have hundreds of unused minutes on my cell phone plan each month. It's free to go for a walk, and I can walk to several local destinations. Maybe my lack of finances has nothing to do with my reclusive behavior. Maybe it's just a convenient excuse. Maybe if I was brave enough to connect with other people, I wouldn't have such a lack of financial stability. Maybe it's a cycle of fears and insecurities reinforcing each other.
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