Choose to succeed. Really? After ten years of struggling to get by on my own, ten years of going to school, trying to get good enough at something, anything, to make myself worthy of success, after ten years of not being able to pay rent, not being able to hold a steady job, not being able to maintain a decent relationship, now, the advice is choose to succeed. Is it really just that easy? Have I really been a complete failure all of these years as a matter of choice?
I want to blame my personality. I am friendly, pleasant, and kind, but I'm far from being a people person. In order to be a success, you need people to like you. I'm very quiet and soft-spoken. I'm reserved and difficult to get to know. I'm anything but the life of the party. People don't clamor to have me around. Usually, my presence is hardly even noticed.
I want to blame my physical limitations. I'm not handicapped or disabled; I just get sick easily, and I'm typically often tired and run down. To be successful, you need to have a lot energy. If you're the one who's able to run laps around the other guy, to get more done with each hour spent working, and to produce faster visible results, then you will succeed. I'm slow - at everything. It takes me the better part of an hour just to clean the bathroom. I'm not able to do a whole lot, and I often struggle to accomplish much with the time and energy that I do have.
I want to blame my abilities, or lack thereof. I can do anything I set my mind to. I can draw, paint, sing, and write poetry. I can do inverse functions and linear equations. I can cook. I can design architectural structures. I can figure out how to do just about anything with a pencil, a piece of paper, and a good textbook on the subject. I just don't do anything well enough to actually get paid for it. It's like, I have all of this latent potential, gifts scattered every which direction, but no ability to focus on one thing long enough to get any real results.
So what do I do instead? If I don't blame or make excuses, if I don't quit and give up, if I take responsibility for my life, for what I want to actually do with it, then what will that look like? I want to choose success. Trust me; there's no shame in being a loser, but it really sucks. So where do I start? What do I need that I don't already have? What does success even look like to me anyway?
I want to blame my personality. I am friendly, pleasant, and kind, but I'm far from being a people person. In order to be a success, you need people to like you. I'm very quiet and soft-spoken. I'm reserved and difficult to get to know. I'm anything but the life of the party. People don't clamor to have me around. Usually, my presence is hardly even noticed.
I want to blame my physical limitations. I'm not handicapped or disabled; I just get sick easily, and I'm typically often tired and run down. To be successful, you need to have a lot energy. If you're the one who's able to run laps around the other guy, to get more done with each hour spent working, and to produce faster visible results, then you will succeed. I'm slow - at everything. It takes me the better part of an hour just to clean the bathroom. I'm not able to do a whole lot, and I often struggle to accomplish much with the time and energy that I do have.
I want to blame my abilities, or lack thereof. I can do anything I set my mind to. I can draw, paint, sing, and write poetry. I can do inverse functions and linear equations. I can cook. I can design architectural structures. I can figure out how to do just about anything with a pencil, a piece of paper, and a good textbook on the subject. I just don't do anything well enough to actually get paid for it. It's like, I have all of this latent potential, gifts scattered every which direction, but no ability to focus on one thing long enough to get any real results.
So what do I do instead? If I don't blame or make excuses, if I don't quit and give up, if I take responsibility for my life, for what I want to actually do with it, then what will that look like? I want to choose success. Trust me; there's no shame in being a loser, but it really sucks. So where do I start? What do I need that I don't already have? What does success even look like to me anyway?
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