Day Twenty-eight

Everything inside of me wants to shut down right now and curl up into a dark corner to hide for the next three days. I get this way every month, so you'd think I'd be used to it by now. And yet, I don't think anyone could ever get used to such an intense feeling in the chest, like I'm simply going to burst open at any moment.  I want to run away and cry for a few hours, but I have to go to work soon.

I'm trying to change my mentality, to think of myself as already having a billion dollars. But when I see the money in my checking account quickly diminishing, mostly due to investing in the lives of my four children, it's hard for me to not get desperate and panicky. The little bit of money I have is draining away faster than I can replace it, I'd better do something quick before I run out completely.

My old way of thinking, however, has proved to not be helpful. The more tightly I attempt to grasp my cash, the more quickly it slips away. When I choose to relax and allow more money to flow to me and through me, believing there is an endless supply and knowing my needs will all be covered as they arrive, not only do I feel much better and more empowered, I also fare much better and meet with more success than I ever would have otherwise. Give and it shall be given to you. Celebrate life, and there will always be more in your life to enjoy.