Transitioning from a minimum-wage worker to a billionaire is the most difficult process I've ever undertaken. I've never before noticed all of the limiting mental strongholds buried deep in my subconscious. Changing requires giving up the old before taking ahold of the new. There's familiarity with where I am and with how much I will allow myself to have. Letting go of my current situation, though it leads to my desired outcome, is the most frightening prospect my psyche has yet to experience.
Not only do I have no idea how I'm going to make a billion dollars, I also have obligations and responsibilities for the income I currently have. My expenses aren't going to go away while I focus on doing whatever it takes to make something of myself. If I knew what the next step was going to be, maybe I wouldn't be so scared. If it didn't require letting go and stepping out on nothing but faith, then my mind and body might be more inclined to cooperate. If I had a billion dollar idea, or even a possible new career path, I would confidently pursue it. Or would I? Would I still be too afraid?
If I had simply won the lottery or inherited a huge sum from a random rich stranger unexpectedly, it might not bother me so much. The thought of turning my world view up-side-down in order to radically change what I expect from myself and from others is the real test. It's the forethought of becoming a completely new person that freaks me out so much. Having a billion dollars is no big deal, especially since I don't even know what I'll do with it when I get it. It's the process of allowing my thoughts and expectations to expand to such an extremely different mode of existence that issues the challenge. Repositioning myself from fear to faith is the first, and the worst, obstacle for me to overcome.
Not only do I have no idea how I'm going to make a billion dollars, I also have obligations and responsibilities for the income I currently have. My expenses aren't going to go away while I focus on doing whatever it takes to make something of myself. If I knew what the next step was going to be, maybe I wouldn't be so scared. If it didn't require letting go and stepping out on nothing but faith, then my mind and body might be more inclined to cooperate. If I had a billion dollar idea, or even a possible new career path, I would confidently pursue it. Or would I? Would I still be too afraid?
If I had simply won the lottery or inherited a huge sum from a random rich stranger unexpectedly, it might not bother me so much. The thought of turning my world view up-side-down in order to radically change what I expect from myself and from others is the real test. It's the forethought of becoming a completely new person that freaks me out so much. Having a billion dollars is no big deal, especially since I don't even know what I'll do with it when I get it. It's the process of allowing my thoughts and expectations to expand to such an extremely different mode of existence that issues the challenge. Repositioning myself from fear to faith is the first, and the worst, obstacle for me to overcome.
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